Saturday, June 7, 2014

Last Minute Transitions

This year is rather strange.

Transitions that normally flow throughout the year are bunching up in an effort to be done by the close of the first half.  It feels like the dam has burst or the clog in the pipe is pulled out.

Or so it seems.

In just these last few weeks:

  • I've repelled a perceived invasion, 
  • Informed my employer-provided health insurance was getting suckier and I can't do a damned thing about it (not even get my own),
  • My clothes dryer broke down,
  • Packed a roommate off to a longish visit in another town, 
  • Paid to have his pet reptile taken away to be properly looked after, and 
  • Said a final goodbye to a much beloved cat.  

Then the roommate came home unexpectedly and told me he was moving out.  (This is not entirely a bad thing, however.)

I'm emotionally exhausted and praying for it all to stop.

Yet, others are still undergoing the same process.  I just read of another blogger's loss.  Her love, her not-long-enough partner passed away yesterday afternoon.  And I know of two more in the early stages of being cancer caregivers.

I guess this is why people turn to religion, the stars, tarot cards, etc.  They need something to help them figure this all out. 

Me?  I went to my journals - art & written.  I'm feeling somewhat better.

Saturday, March 29, 2014

And I'm Back! Misc. Art Journal Pages

Yes, I'm still here.  Life has been happening so I was sidetracked for a while.

Art journaling has become something special in my life - a second way to getting my head cleared and some therapy for my "issues."

I've been doing my own Book of Days this year.  Using a larger format re-purposed book has helped me change up how I've approached it.  Sunday mornings are my key days for this.  I've elected not to share those pages here right now.  They are too big for my scanner and both too personal and too boring to post.

Mandala Magic 2014 is in full swing but this year I've fallen way behind.  Again - LIFE happened.  I haven't given up on it by any means and perhaps during some upcoming time off I'll be able to work on it.

The following pictures are from my other art journals.  These are from June 2013 to February 2014.

Black & white Zendoodle inspired pages:

Mandala Pages:

Two page spreads:

And the rest:

Sunday, December 29, 2013

Great Round of Mandala - Stages 11 & 12

Stage 11 - Falling Apart
Stage 11 was a hard one with so much going on in my life at the time.  Meetings and personal issues all emphasized the "falling apart" aspect of this month.  I even broke my glasses.  Arge!
Mandala of Fragmentation
Mandalas of Scratch Art &
Least Favorite Color
Stage 12 was such a huge relief.  Meetings over, the holiday season began seeping into the cracks and s-l-o-w-l-y it all settled down into quiet.  I honestly felt like I was "Opening to Grace."
Stage 12 - Opening to Grace
Mandala of the Winter Solstice
The Solstice brought some special gifts for me.  Inclusion and acceptance.  In a very unexpected way, I was able to hold a releasing ceremony and honor the solstice.  I am incredibly grateful that it turned out as it did instead of holding on to the expectations I'd locked myself into.

So.  That pretty well wraps up the 2013 Great Round of Mandala course I was in.  There's one last chapter in the workbook that I'll be reading and working on.  I don't know if I'll be sharing that or not.

2014 will be a solo journey.  Expenses are rising but my salary is not, so I cannot pay for any online classes and I don't have anyone here to share the experience with.  That's the problem with being older when you finally give yourself permission to tear down some walls and see what lies on the other side.

The plan is to work on my own with another Book of Days (as I did for 2012) and exploring the concept of the Goddess along with regular art journaling.  I may get myself back into writing, too.  We'll have to see what happens.

May you all have a wonderful New Year and I wish you health, prosperity (not necessarily in money, but in other delightful ways), and magic in 2014.


UPDATE: 12/31/2013 - Julie Gibbson, our fearless leader in the Great Round course informed me that in a Random Act of Kindness, one of my fellow participants has paid my tuition for the 2014 Great Round of Mandala class!  Whoot!  Thank you - whoever you are!!!!  Stand by for more art posts in 2014.

**dances down the hall**